Action

Okay. Whining never helped any. Except maybe to clear my head, unburden my heart and prod me into acting.

Now that I've done that, here are my action steps for the week:

(1) Regain the weight that I lost. I'm drinking milk as much as I can.

(2) Maintain a bright outlook. Things are never as bad as they seem.

(3) Update my resume. You never know when it's gonna come in handy.

(4) Go to the derma.

(5) Look for a good spa.

(6) Get a haircut.

(7) Buy new clothes.

(8) Stay in the office for a maximum of 12 hours, no more.

Okay.

Looks like a good list. The trick is in following it religiously.

Let's go, Allan! Let's make this pre-birthday week special :)

Walastik

I just finished watching Brother Bear for the 2nd time, on DvD this time. I still got teary-eyed just like the 1st time.

Wow. Got irritated with my folks a few minutes ago. My mom especially. I've been spending more time in the office the past weeks. I pulled two 24-hour shifts the previous week, and this week I was lucky if I got home at midnight. It's all connected to the "computerization" of our systems, the removal of our back-up system, and the reshuffling of tasks and responsibilities. So I've been thinking of resigning. Just a thought, no concrete plans or anything, but if this continues 'till the end of June, I don't think I could take it anymore. I voiced it out to my mom, half-jokingly of course. Then a few minutes ago, dad walks out of his room and asks how I am and if I really am resigning. Tells me my mom told him. Sigh. Now it's a big deal. I tell him I just said that and I didn't really mean it. What's the big problem if I do resign? Am I not allowed to do so? Anyways, this month marks my 4th year in said company. People prolly feel the same way... 4-year itch maybe? Most of my contemporaries have left.

Do I regret not accepting the promotion to a different department? I don't think so. I still think I did the right thing. But it's getting harder to believe that every day.

And my anchor's so far away.

I chatted with bespren Cathy this morning. She said if she found a job in the States, she's staying there. That really brought my spirits down. I don't see my friends anymore. We're all so busy with our respective lives. We didn't even get together for Saren's birthday.

Speakin' of birthdays, mine's coming up. The 1st birthday (in almost a decade) that I'm not spending with Cathy. Whoopee. I'm gonna take a sabbatical. I'm renting a hotel room, bringing books and comics and my consoles and I'm "getting away from it all."

I look so ugly. I lost a lotta weight, I forget to shave most times and I badly need a haircut. The sad thing is I don't even care. My body and neck aches everyday.

I'm so lost.

Advanced happy birthday to me.

Yay.

Purple

I just read "Purple." All 5 chapters.

Before becoming the sarcastic and pessimistic private investigator we've all grown to love, Jessica Jones used to be a superhero called "Jewel." A battle with an evil super-villain led to this transformation. Jewel's clash with the villainous Purple Man led to her defeat and subsequent capture. The Purple Man controlled Jessica's actions, had her watch as he raped teen-aged girls which he picked up from the streets, and cruelly made Jessica beg for sex. For eight long months, Jessica was his prisoner and his slave. After reading about another successful adventure of his arch-foe Daredevil, the Purple Man ordered Jewel to storm Avengers Mansion and attack Daredevil (who wasn't even a member). As she flew towards the mansion, she noticed that the further away she was from the Purple Man, the lesser his control over her. Unfortunately, although her mind knew that what she was doing was wrong, her hands thought otherwise. Jewel clobbered the Scarlet Witch squarely at the back of her head while the Avengers quinjet was landing. Seeing the shocked and enraged looks on the faces of her fellow heroes, Jessica had no choice but to turn back and fly away. The Avengers followed suit and hot on her trail, the Scarlet Witch's teammates gave Jessica a beating that she would never forget. It was only due to her friend, Ms. Marvel's timely rescue that helped prevent the damage done from becoming irreparable. Bloody and bruised, Jessica almost lapsed into a coma. Soon after realizing that Jessica's mind was under the Purple Man's control, the Avengers apologized and even offered her a slot in their team as an auxiliary member. It was too late. Jessica decided to quit the hero business for good.

Flashforward to the present. We see that the Purple Man has escaped from prison. He has only one person in mind that he wants to visit.

Jessica Jones.

"Purple" turns everything topsy-turvy for Jessica. She's in for the fight of her life, which may lead to the ultimate redeeming moment... or to the death that she has long feared.